Regrets

Well yeah, it's 1 am and I'm still up.

I'm expecting to be lectured at around 10:15 in the morning by Boo-chan and if I havent said it already, here it is, "I'm REALLY! sorry, i should of listended (i forgot how to spell the word!!!) to u and went to sleep at 11:30pm. I'm stupid!"

So yeah, I'm pissed, but I'm not sure what I could direct it to, I think that's because I'm too tired. Right now, if u looked at my face, ud see it as tired, but these words reflect my anger. ^_^ yes they do. sometimes I cant understand myself and I can hardly understand others. I wonder where the hell they keep themselves and if they ever let anything touch them there. I know a lot of people who dont and how that pisses me off...so much. Iggnorance pisses me off, but i accept it cause that's the way the person is. But , but, somewhere within me it just builds up. But then again im iggnortant too. Stubborn. Ill listen to other people...but if i think it's "wrong" then it's "wrong" ..hm, and even now when i think about it, i still think im right in my decisions...hm....

Humans are so damn confusing. But whats the point of understanding them? What's the point of knowing ne thing? God, times like this i wish i were a cat. Look at him, all fat and uncaring, sleeping like a baby. Not a damn care in the world. Yeesh that's the life. I also hate it when people conceal the truth. If you've got something to say, say it!!!! GEEZ!!!!! Yes, ok, i am mean, i can b mean sometimes. u wan a truth? here's a truth:

i dun really care about ne thing, ...well, maybe one ...person, but other then that, nnoooopppeee. y? because everything's just a neverending cycle of the same thing. and everyone just does things because they dont want to realize they're a part of something that doesnt make sense, they want to believe it does.

pah.

and now ill b expected to go bac to that, by the end of this ill b "correcting" everything ive just typed. *shakes head* honestly...why? it's like humans r built to ask that.....................................and haf it answered. *shakes head* this world...this world...such petty, petty, things. *shakes head* *shakes head* Not even the dead find peace...in this world.

*a couple a seconds later*

i care about my family, my friends...just sometimes it seems hopeless. wat's the point of caring? ya kno. i dunno, prob feel dis way cause im tired and hungry.

*SIGHS* boo, i miss u, i wish i could talk to u....u.u

~HoSHi*

p.s. "When Angels deserve To die? Should that b the title of, "Could u think of a day"?